“I’ve Got Butterflies”
“Butterflies” was where it all began.
"Butterflies" is the first song I ever wrote. I was thirteen and at summer camp, and like many kids that age, I was infatuated with someone — and I wanted them to know, in song form, of course. So, with the help of a few friends, I wrote an early version of "Butterflies" and performed it for the whole camp. It was a hit, and for two years afterward, campers kept asking me to put it on a streaming platform — a strictly camp phenomenon.
When COVID forced us all inside, I wondered if I could actually produce the song. I knew I couldn't do it alone, so my wonderful friend Morris Raskin stepped in to help. He was in New York City, and I was upstate, so our collaboration was entirely virtual — but after a few hiccups, we landed on a draft we loved. My friend Rebecca Zhang created the single's artwork, and with that, we released the song.
"Butterflies" went live on April 24th, 2020, and has surpassed 7,000 streams to date!
The song remains a touchstone in my growth as a musician and songwriter — and a good reminder of my beginnings. I love talking with camp friends about it, because it was the light, carefree soundtrack of our childhood.
"Butterflies" laid the foundation for everything I've written since. It's where I honed the songwriting process I still use (with some minor adjustments) and started figuring out how I wanted my songs to sound (something I'm still tweaking). More than anything, "Butterflies" is where I began to find myself as a musician.
Lyrics!
Butterflies
You know I don't care for those love songs
But don't you think it'd be nice
You know I don't care for those sweet, sappy stories
Or hanging your heart on the line
But don't you think it'd be nice
So, for now, I'll sit here and watch
Wondering how I'll get out of this mess
Can you tell I'm pretty nervous
Some might even say scared
I've got butterflies
And not the good kind
I need somebody to let them out
Worked up the nerve to say hello
And I just wanted you to know
That I
Spent too much time thinking about what could've been
So nothing happened in the end
So, for now, I'll sit here and watch
Wondering how I'll get out of this mess
Can you tell I'm pretty nervous
Some might even say scared
I've got butterflies
And not the good kind
I need somebody to let them out
Maybe one of these days
I'll wanna do something
About how I feel
But for now, I'll hold my tongue
And I'll hope for the best I can heal
Can you tell I'm pretty nervous
Some might even say scared
I've got butterflies
And not the good kind
I need somebody to let them out
When “Butterflies” first came out, I was obsessed with checking the stream count, but as time passed, I found myself checking less and less. I checked again in November of 2024 and found that “Butterflies” had surpassed 6,500 streams, and I was ecstatic. These numbers seemed unfathomable to me as a 16-year-old releasing her first single.